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Today Sucks....

I should be happy that exams are over, but I'm not....


Well, when I was in my Computer Applications class last Friday, we did an on-line review thing on the Internet. Michelle and I automatically wanted to be partners for a group. Then guess who showed up. J.D., a boy in our class who loves to play around.

He was flirting with Michelle and I.

Yesterday, when we reviewed, he was turned around talking, and I grabbed the mouse and clicked an answer. He saw me, and grabbed my hand away. That simple little touch made me feel so warm inside (not in that way!).

Anyways, today was our last day in Mrs. Edwards' class.

I did not tell J.D. that I liked him....

I was so scared to. I was afraid that I would look stupid or something. I blew it.

Now, he's not gonna know that I liked him, and he may find some other girl to go with. I wish I could have told him, but I'm so shy that it's hard for me to do that. It's like I'm on death row, and walking to the electric chair. That's how I feel when I try to do that.

I don't know why, but as soon as I got home today, I just burst into tears. He'll never know I liked him.

So, I'm probably never going to see him much at school again.

Call me an idiot, but I have been so mad at myself today. I can't get this out of my head. I'm not being weird or anything. I just want to have a relationship. J.D. looks like a pretty nice guy, and he's funny. He's single, I think.

About J.D., I really want to be with him. But I can't bring myself to tell him my feelings about him.


May 2009

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